Time Reflections

Lately, I have a lot of time to think about time.

Time is strange. It's been one month since Derek went to heaven. It feels like it was this morning and it feels like it's been forever. Time has stood still and moved faster than I can comprehend.

Before the mountains were born or brought forth the earth & the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God. For a thousand years in your sight are like a day that has just gone by, or like a watch in the night - Psalm 90: 2 & 4

Time feels unfair. We didn't have enough. I know I've said, "5 years or 500 - it would never be enough" I just feel like so much time was wasted while we were being made into the person the other one needed. We didn't get to make babies together. We didn't get to grow old together. We still had a list of things we wanted to see and do together.

A person's days are determined; you have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed. - Job 14: (NIV)

Time is overwhelming. If 30 days was this hard, how will I survive 365 days or 5 years??
How do you plan for things in the future when your present has been altered so harshly?

Time is precious. Stop wasting it on things that don't matter. Last summer I read something about the 5 minute rule. It said if something won't matter in 5 years, don't spend more than 5 minutes worrying about it. I had been working on that.

Time heals? We will see. I know the passing of time has helped with the grief of losing my Dad. It helped with moving forward after a traumatic incident as a child (see blog section on G is for Grace). I am keeping faith.